Sweet Baby Gifts

ok so me(17) and my best friend(lets call him yuri..hes 16) we’ve been really close friends for the last 2 years. anyways we become really really close and basically connected to the hip close, and I don’t know. The feelings grew into something more. Then all of a sudden BAM. i think i might like yuri. a relationship with him would be amazing. I wanted to spend every living second around him. He was just perfect and kind and awesome. I’ve been questioning my sexual orientation for the longest and when he came around it just went into complete override. We were both just always talking to each other on the phone or texting or hanging out. We did everything together. It got so weird sometimes that people started wondering if we were going out or something. Even his dad asked us…It just made me all the more happier when people would think that. Like if I ever got the chance to kiss his perfect lips my life would be exhilarating(back on topic) Here is where the confusion started pt 1. I got a call from him one day. he was all excited and stuff. So he blurted I think I like someone from lacrosse practice. My stomach went into knots I kept thinking it was me it was me. Then, I was like so who is it and he goes this girl(lets call her Drea) my entire soul was drained from me. I couldn’t think straight, nothing was making sense it was all just one big ball of confusion. The very next day we got into this huge fight. He said something jokingly, and I exploded and went crazy. Man, I was disappointed and felt like my soul was ripped from me; even though it wasn’t his fault. I didn’t go to school for the next two days. for those two days I’ve never felt so much emptiness in my entire life. Physical I was whole, but emotionally I was nothing without Yuri. It was like he became my emotional bridge or something and I need him there to feel accomplished and fulfill. I got a text message from him on one of my days off and he was like are you seriously going to just ignore me like this? I need you you can’t do this to me. It was very touching and I replied and said i was sorry. We hugged and smiled(every time we hug..he rubs up on me all the time) and everything was good again. I felt whole again. He didn’t talk about Drea again for awhile. We had a sleep over the following weekend. We both didn’t go to school that Friday and I went straight to his house for the day. We chilled at the beach and had lunch then we went back to his pool. We were both tanning and talking. when he was like. You want to go back upstairs my dad isn’t home and we would have the place for yourselves. I was struck with excitement and agreed quickly. We reach upstairs and we both notice that his dad is home(goddamit!!! ughh!!!! who knew what would happen). We went to his room and we both laid on his bed he locked the door behind him. We were watching Saw and he was like he’s scary and hates scary movies. He started cuddling on me(it was so cute) so i put my arms around him and told him. It will be fine and we could always change the channel. He fell asleep right there and I watched him until he woke up..It was the greatest weekend of my life. Ever since that weekend we called each other like every minute of the day just to check up on each other. He held a birthday party for me with cost him $750!! I was like WOAH! I did the same for him but that was completely unexpected. Ok, here is where it gets really confusing pt2. Around Xmas time. He started acting weird. We were good friends with this girl named Cici. Yuir and Cici started becoming really really close. Like it showed. behold I started to get ridiculously jealous of it. I didnt know what to think. was he just going to toss me away like I was nothing to him. Xmas came and we were exchanging gifts. He got me stuff for lacrosse new helmet and pads. He gave Cici this collection of charms that he’s worn since he was a baby. I didnt get it. How in heavens name was he going to give such a precious and personal gift to someone he just met like that. Anyways I shook it off, and didnt say a word. I got him this really nice Armani watch and a note telling him how much I appreciated him and loved him. He called me sobbing when he finished reading it he said i was the best thing to ever come in his life and I make him so happy. he knows I’ll be in his life forever. Cici disappeared and they just became friends(felt like I dodged a bullet there) but Drea was still there…. A couple months later and he’s going out with Drea. My life went into shreds. I was greatly affected by this. Maybe all those emotions I was feeling was just related to being such good friends. I started talking to other people on the team and getting close. yuri confronted me about it and was like I don’t like when people are all up on you you’re mines. Something about that made me very confused. I didnt know what to think. Well him and drea didnt last. When they broke up Yuri told me he felt like she was competing with me, and want

That was the longest rant I have read in a while, but here is my take on the story. You are too obsessed with your best friend. Have you ever thought what was best for him? It`s great that you are so close together, but if your friend is straight, then you need to back off and stay his close friend whom he will need for support and emotional comfort when something goes wrong. If he is bi, then be careful. Getting into a sexual relationship with such a close friend can be dangerous. One mistake and he will never forgive you. That is how it usually goes. Just enjoy the time you spend together and become friends for life.